yeah....Things will only get better

It hit me like a bullet, but I guess it blasted him apart. No.. this is not war or anything of that sort. No one misfired, in fact no arms involved. The news hit me hard... in fact all of us. No one expected it. But well it came.

Chek's dad passed away. Very sudden. And he had to rush back to Serembun for the furneral. His dad died of a heart attack. Oh well... we all have to face death sooner or later. But well Chek, he had just broken up a relationship and now he has to face this . God grant him the courage to carry on. He is a jovial guy, hopefully he will be alright.

We don't know his dad, except for the fact that he was a senior employee of Malaysian Airlines. Not too sure how close they were but well... he is after all his DAD.

Well, Zhikun lost his dad when he was in his teens. I'll be frank here and I'm glad to have my dad to be by my side. Yeah.. he is working his butt off for my education and not forgetting my brothers'. Just wanna say... Dad I love you.

Somehow, it must be because of something that triggers this sense of emotion in me. It serves as a kind of reminder/warning.

The thing with blogging is that at the very time of typing, wadever can be recalled will get into the blog. Likewise, it's the same with exams. Whatever you can retrieve from the memory store will be written down on the exam scripts. Except for the well prepared candidate, he still has a choice to decide what information is relevant and the best form of presentation of the information. Of course that will warrant higher grade.

We tend to have a tendancy to produce exam desired kind of answers. Oh well.... I don't have this problem with blogging First of all, I can just write down what I want. I am held responsible for whatever statements I write. In exams too.... If I write crap I get crappy grades. Yeah in a way, I'm responsible too. Hahaha...

Actually, if you are reading this, you probably have no idea what 's this all about. In fact, I also have no idea. This is the beauty of blog. You know you write rubbish , but you are often not aware of it until you read it. HAHa.. This is rubbish. Thanx for reading..............

A quiet moment. Some time to myself... where I can ponder, reflect upon whatever I've been through, what I've done. Yeah.. peace and silence. I just love it.

*ping*

A pin drop? The silence was broken. Or should I say...

*PooOOt*

Someone farted. Oh well....

Been looking through my email. Yes... some people are just poor with email etiquette. And yes.. some are simply an absolute delight to work with. Prompt replies, clear and precise. No one has so much time to read your long thesis lah.. Leave that to your final year ? And yes.. please leave out the footnotes/endnotes/biblio. This is not some academic paper lah... so yeah? Of course if you really have so much time.. why not you do my biblio for me? Hahaha

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Somehow, they just cannot leave me alone. Yes, buddies... I'm single and yes for quite some time liao.. but that doesn't mean that every single female that walk pass... you would want to intro to me/ or encourage me to approach her? I noe you guys mean well lah but also not liddat mah. Besides... who wants a short, fat , ugly and poor fella? wahahahhaha

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Been having stiff necks of late.. think I'm getting old. Or should I change my sleeping position ? heck.. how would I noe noe what my sleeping position is? for obvious reasons... and in case u dunno wad the reasons are... oh well... to sum it up.. i would be sleeping... how to noe?

I feel like smoking again. Ok.. no need to tell me 1001 reasons of not smoking. I also know. But I guess the cost factor is there... so don't think I will get back to smoking again ... at least not for now when I'm still a starving student from some university that likes to associate itself with the term " world-class". And I don't feel good accepting others' cigarettes. Not very nice lah... gone were the days whereby a pack cost 2 plus. You can get a huge one with less den 5 . Arghh... in short.. I don't think I will get back to smoking lah huh. yeah.. the people around me smokes.. but I guess the cost factor is sufficient to put me off?? Haha.. you think I'm weird? Ok.. I am

Yeah.. Happy Birthday Mom... I love you.

My deepest symphathies and condolences to the families of the late Recruit Chew Heng Huat, Andrew, 2SG Thirukumaran s/o Rajagopal and 2SG Hu Enhuai.
The death of 2SG Hu brought about a huge debate. After all, his death was said to be brought about by illegal training methods.. Training Safety Regulations were not adhered to.

I too had been through Full time National Service. As much as I dread the thought of going through what I had been through, I do recognise the fact that National Service is essential for Singapore. Other than the security aspect National Service does toughen young ignorant boys. In fact enough have been said regarding these aspects. During my years of service, I have been through the very much in the limelight training , the same water treatment that was given out to 2SG Hu. Yeah.. my head was dunked into the water with my hands tied. Yeah... it was terrible.. I mean, no one said it was fun. But I managed to survie... I mean I'm alive.

I'm not too sure if the training was excessive... realistic training is a must. Otherwise there's simply no point in NS. Just get some mecenary forces and that's it.. as simple as that. I believe that excessive dunking and maybe his head was held too long under water. Some 5 or 6 other servicemen had breathing difficulties too afer undergoing the same type of treatment. The instrcutors might have just went overboard ? I guess I might know them, afterall having been through this. I mean , stringent safety measures were taken during my course. So I guess.... this has been breached.

No doubt that this type of training is not allowed under SAF training regulations. However, no one actually paid much attention to it during the other 80 batches before this incident. This is so typical of SAF. Actions will only be taken if someone really dies from it. Professional armed forces ? Far from it man.

Col Yeo Eidik had taken over from Col Noel Cheah. Hmm... Col Yeo was my commander during my NSF days. A true gentleman, very much respected by all. He did place a lot of emphasis on safety and such. His sucessor... a certain LTC Tay wasn't particular. No doubt nothing happen during my time... but like what I mentioned... It will only be a great issue when someone dies. Somehow SAF just won't grow out of this? Col Cheah looks like a very decent soldier. You don't become the CCO for nothing. But I guess he will have to shoulder the blame.

Food for though. If this happened in Taiwan and the public got news of it.. I guess the Defence Minister will have to resign. Hence, RAdm Teo better do a good job out the investigations.

Friendster... one helluva monster.... You'll be amazed at how small this world is. Yes... defintely. It can get real addictive.. checking at the number of friends you actually have. In a way, it's bad... your friends are like your collection ? You try your best to search for people that you knew, they don't necessary are the ones you know. ( notice the difference in tenses?)

Well, I managed to get in contact with a couple of old friends. Yeah.. haven't really spoken to them for a long long time. But well, all thanks to Friendster. =)

Online dating.... hmm... this is one of the functions of friendsters. Oh well... I have my reservations. Not too sure about this thing though. Yes.. I'm single but I don't think I will depend on this to find a galfren. Not because of pride as my fren Henry suggests, but rather this is as good as match making, whereby a matchmaker would bring some nice pictures of the sweet gal of which family and then the groom will decide. Just that in this case, it's done online. Much more efficient and more straight to the point?

If match making is so frown about, I guess this is as well.

Matchmaking aside, Friendster's fantastic. Enough said.

yeah... I'm back.. much exhausted and drained. Exams are drawing near defintely... and of course assignments and other are due.... all around the corner. Really feel like skipping all lectures and tutorials and just concentrate on mugging. But that is defintely too huge a risk to take. This is no O or A levels, whereby locking up in a room and mug from morning to night and you can get somewhere. I need the participation points. I need to submit the assignments. In short, i still need to hand in my work... I still need the points to make up for the short fall.

Am never a good student so please don't expect much from me... not a statement of prudence or insurance or defensive pessimism or wadsoever, just merely stating a fact.

A far away island whereby there's no one. Peaceful and tranquil.....not expecting to see seagulls but well... at least everything's calm. An escape for me ? Yeah.. I sound stres? Yeah.. maybe.. and yeah.. Ming ming said that too... but well oh well...who isnt?

I am at AS1.... **aGaIn**. Got Jay to packet my lunch for me... not going to say thank you to him though.. haha.. atttitude? yeah... recipocrate his LL-ness.hahaha

Yeah.. going to skip I/O... watch webcast lah...haha

Will be back

Okies... I 'm dead broke.... very much so. Only have like 10 cents left in my wallet... and it's the trip to the ATM machine again. Not too sure if it can dispense 10 bucks notes.. apparently it's always out of notes. But I think I saw the Cisco Van some 2 days ago. There should be enough cash. Unless NUS students can withdraw all the 10 bucks in 2 days lah.

Yeah.. it's all over.... I saw it with my very own eyes. They were once so loving... romantic gestures.. little gifts... sweet words. And we thought that they were meant for each other. Enuff said. It was very abrupt in fact.. too abrupt for us to notice it. I believe that it took us by surprise.

Today is the final end to everything I guess. She is already attached and it's only like one-two months? I'm in no position to comment about this but oh well it's defintely very painful reality to accept. He took it well until this afternoon. He went home early. No one suspected anything. Then he returned. With a bag full of gifts that he once gave to her and also gifts that he receieved. A very romantic gesture... he had kept every single movie tickets stubs and also tickets to Sentosa, Cameron Highlands.. and so on.. all the places that they went together.

As he threw them into the fire, he recounted the wondeful moments they had. As they turn into ash, hopefully his feelings for her would be the same as well. Slowly but steadily... they become dust. Having known him for so long, he is a very emotional person. He has invested a lot of his feelings into this relationship. That is certain. Something I have witnessed. And I felt happy for him. However this outcome not only pierced his heart, I can feel it too. I do not know how she is feeling, I only hope he will recover from this.

I know he will... and just to let you know brother, we are all behind you. You will be alright. We just know that.

Wow.. havent been publishing blogs for days already... not that I have nothing to write, just that been pretty busy of late. Yeah.. tests and stuff. And of course some non studies related stuff too. READ: NPCC...

Anyway I guess my Unit stand down for exams liao. Time for me to study for me exams I guess.. and yeah.. I am studying for my tests. Nothing surprising.

This is the season to be sad.. not only for exams but also in the area of love I guess... Not me.. fortunately or unfortunately ... I 'm still single... so no chance of breaking up? Some consolation I guess. I guess these few days will be in mourning I guess... moruning of the demise of a once strong and enviable relationship.

Words of consolation are better left unsaid at times I guess.

Time to get back to work now

No NPCC... woke up later than usual. Took it easy in the morning. Read the papers, listened to radio and so on. Brought my brother to school and went to meet the guys. Kelvin was with us too. Wendy was so sweet... prepared some sweet stuff for us... fantastic.

Went to watch INFERNAL AFFAIRS 2 ... yeah.. I'm surprised that I actually went to catch it. Seldom watch movies... cos I often fall asleep inside the cinema. Yeah.. managed to stay awake for this though.. but barely just. Exciting film though ... thought the director did a great job.

Guess what? and no prizes for guessing correctly... I'm still in AS1... haha... studyin for a test lah though I have no idea what to study.... sounds ridiculous? yes it sure is.

I managed to get a new keypad for my handphone.... not a newhandpone... still my old trusted 3310... that accompanied me through thick and thin in the army.. and now reservist... ya.. just received a call from my reservist clerk.. to confirm my particulars again... prep work for reservist. Shitty ya? but well... best for it to end ASAP.

Looking at the icq list... I have 50 people online. Everyone's rushing through their work... and doing last minute prep for their mid terms and quizes. Nothing amusing though.... you always get people that do so. This is SIngapore... or is it a international kind of practice.

Okies.. Yahwee wants mine blog addy... haha... I don't really have the intention to publicise mine... but since she has asked for it.. she shall be given... yayaya... sounds crappy.

Okies.. recieved an email telling me of another additional member to my friendster collection.. don't think I have a lot yet.. but well... it's increasing. This thing is kind of addictive you noe.. but well.. it sure is interesting.. wahahahahah.

Just received a call from Nat... so sweet of her to remember me. Well she doesn't sell insurance so no worries. Thanx Nat. I miss her fried rice... or she would prefer to call them fired rice... her logic being that you use leftover rice to fried... these rice have been fired.. cos it's leftover.. hence it shall be known as fired rice... I tried to believe her ... I guess it's more of a typo error of hers... and ya.. she just went along with the mistake. Or rather tried to justify her error. =p And yes.. she was my chionging kaki... very very fantastic dancer...gyrating to the best of music... or any decent music... though that can be pretty subjective ya? I find retro nice but not someone else.. so.. yeah... Nat loves retro too. Or at least she did.

Maybe will call her when I have the time lah.. eh.. got test tomorrow I mean later... den next week still have that one.. Language and Cog.. a killer.. I really catch nothing. Siao liao lor.. This Weekend burn liao... but den again.. I don't have a life.. makes no diff at all ya?? nuff said.....

-peace out-

Just finish my adnormal psychology test... Haha.. Dead... Finish.. Habis..Si liao.. Feel like going through some tikam tikam. I never like MCQ..too much things to remember. Easy to KO.

Will be doing some tutorial stuff.. Having a presentation at 1600 hrs. I have some 3 hrs 55 min to do it. HAHa.. sounds exciting ? Oh well no lor.. have I/O psyc and Asian Psyc assignements to do. ALso have a test this coming Friday.. hmm.. so if ming ming is reading this.. you'll realise that you are not alone.

And Oh ya.. Happy Childrens' Day to all .. if you still celebrate this day.. good for you... =)