yeah....Things will only get better

Are they only meant to be, dreams?

I must confess, becoming a police officer wasn't my childhood dream. I don't really have any childhood ambition. Dad wanted me to become a lawyer, ok, so for sometime I told others that my ambition was to become a lawyer. That's the typical ambition parents have for their children I guess? haha.. not lawyer den it's doctor lor.. u noe along that line, where you get huge bucks??haha

And now when I have to make decision about what to do in life. I hate the fact that I have to carry on my dad's dream. Okies.. I didn't get into law school, though I must admit having some knowledge is interesting and defintely benificial. Ended up as a psychology major. That wasn't in his "plans" too. Took quite a lot of effort to convince him, though till today I don't think he's convinced. It's either law and since I didn't end up in law school, it better be political science or some foreign language. Nope, I didn't do neither.

I guess now when I'm at the crossroad of my life where I have to make a huge, major decision. I know what I want, yeah, joining the force. Dad knows it too,but he has other plans for me. His business.

Don't try to talk me into it. I only know that we only live once. Perhaps running your own business can bring you lotsa money, perhaps you will lose everything. No one knows, but the minimum is that you should see the value in your product? Otherwise what you will be doing is merely earning money or losing money. There is absolutely no meaning to life. You only see things in terms of money.

Went down to HQ in the afternoon. Returned the stop watch to CFS. Had a chat with Commandant. She seems pretty ok to chat with, not as chatty with some of the other heads though but she's pretty much approachable. Well, learnt from her that the force is really not recruiting anyone anymore for the post of Senior Officer.

"They might in a year or two I guess...Try again next time" kinda replies... well.. getting pretty sian of it.

They closed the application some 2-3 years back. If so I don't see the point why do they actually still have road shows and stuff at career fairs. Try asking them for advise on how to apply. You will get a blatant " We're not recruiting at the moment. But you can try sending in your application. We will inform you if we have vacancies. Thank You for your interest in the post of senior police officer." Haha.. Think I can rattle on their standard replies.

I don't have that much time to wait for their application to open again. It's time that I move on and stop harbouring any hopes.

Who says dreams are meant to be fulfilled?

They give you hope. But at the same time, they crush you. Reality always hurts.

Enuff said.