yeah....Things will only get better

"I know that you still love her a lot. But why do you not want to see her? You no longer hold it against her, but yet you decide to forgo this chance to have another look at her?"

I'm sure I did ask him this question myself. Straight forward and direct to the point. Right on the dot.

Similarly he replied.

" I don't hate her, I never did. I loved her and I still do. I given her so much in the past but she chose to believe that they are of lesser weightage( direct translation). I've never asked for anything in return but well, I 've lost everything in the end. I still love her, but I must be fair to myself. I have neglected loving and caring for myself in the past for I 've placed her needs before mine. Today, I'm learning to love myself a little more each day, just like my promise to love her more each passing day. I've got to be fair to myself this time round and learn to love myself more."