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Don't complain when you cannot give better alternative suggestions ok?? This is for your own good.

Right...

It doesn't help one bit when you're almost at the bottom most of the valley, lost in directions, uncertain of your next step. Your partner, the person closest to you blames you for causing both of you to be in this situation. Then, all of a sudden, your partner decides to call it quits. Took the very first exit opportunity, still pinning the blame on you.
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Some time later, you, stuck alone in the valley, tried to crawl your way back, only to realise that your partner has all along planned to leave you for your partner has found another option. And that was like only a couple of weeks after the whole ordeal. No one knows for sure why has this happened.
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Now, your ex partner still thinks that there's nothing wrong with parting ways and that it's nothing got to do with him/her to help you when you're already at the lowest point in your life. Giving you the kick for a better option, well, this is human nature. Seeking for greener pastures.
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Seems like your friends can't do much to alleviate you from your sufferings. And I dont blame them for it. They have found their happiness, blissful.

Whatever time they could have offered to spend with you, is, often spent text messagssing their other halves. I'm not suggesting you don't trust your friends, but they didn't mean to be insensitive I'm sure.

You can only stand up for yourself. After all, you came to this world alone, and at times like this,you would have to face it alone, as well.
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You offered them your help when they were down but please don't expect the favours to be returned in any ways. After all, as tempting as it might sound, offering help isn't a case of transaction or an insurance policy.

You feel neglected again.
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Some time down the road, the former partner tried to see how you're doing.

Oh what a shame, for you've not gotten past the mourning stage while the ex is already happily with someone else. You're chided for not being able to move ahead and once again hints that you're the cause of everything.
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One might not be able to forget, but please forgive.
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*Pray*

Our Father.........

Happy Birthday Mom. Though not too sure where are you currently, which city or town, wherever, what ever, wishing you a very happy birthday!!

Oh well.... another day at work whereby I had to go through the paperwork once more since that I realised there were some errors. Just to ensure everything went through properly, had to plough through everything once more. Oh gosh... this is not the first time.

Something is very wrong.

还是在中华诗句之中兜圈子。

陈老师提了提那么一句 “江山代有才人出，各领风骚五百年”。

赵翼是这么写的：

满眼生机转化钧，
天工人巧日争新。
预支五百年新意，
到了千年又觉陈。

李杜诗篇万口传，
至今已觉不新鲜。
江山代有才人出，
各领风骚五百年。

只眼须凭自主张，
纷纷艺苑漫雌黄。
矮人看戏何曾见，
都是随人说短长。

少时学语苦难圆，
只道工夫半未全。
到老始知非力取，
三分人事七分天。

诗解穷人我未穷，
恐因诗尚不曾工。
熊鱼自笑贪心甚，
既要工诗又怕穷。

五首中，还是其中之 ”李杜诗篇万口传，至今已觉不新鲜，江山代有才人出，各领风骚五百年”颇为人知。

离别总叫人难过，依依不舍。

无意翻了翻仅剩下的那几本文学课本。说实在，也不记得过去所努力的几篇诗。或许只记得这唯一的一首－－《再别康桥》。依稀记得诗人曾写过的一句：“我的眼是康桥教我睁的，我的求知欲是康桥给我拨动的，我的自我意识是康桥给我胚胎的。

不曾到过此地，但心中蕴藏着一种慕名的感觉。打从中学就与康桥脱离不了关系，毕竟升学于否，就在于能不能闯过剑桥（ 也就是康桥）那一关了。

《再别康桥》


轻轻的我走了，正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手，作别西天的云彩。

那河畔的金柳，是夕阳中的新娘；
波光里的艳影，在我的心头荡漾。

软泥上的青荇，油油的在水底招摇；
在康河的柔波里，我甘心做一条水草！

那榆荫下的一潭，不是清泉，
是天上虹揉碎在浮藻间，沉淀着彩虹似的梦。

寻梦？撑一支长篙，向青草更青处漫溯，
满载一船星辉，在星辉斑斓里放歌。

但我不能放歌，悄悄是别离的笙箫；
夏虫也为我沉默，沉默是今晚的康桥。

悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。

It was the very first time I've seen him flared up.

And well, frankly speaking, it wasn't a sight to behold. The normally soft-spoken, well mannered gentleman turned into a scary monster and blew his top. C* was at the receiving end.

I tried to pull them aside but to no avail. It's pointless trying to talk sense to an angry man. Let him cool down before anything can get in.

And what crime did C* do ? Well, being the "concern" and " friendly" person , he tried to give S* an update on how he is doing. For the uninitiated, S* is his ex girlfriend. They have been together for quite sometime until S* left him for another guy. I don't think C* knew the circumstances of the breakup and tried to be "helpful".

But one thing is for sure, the breakup ain't pretty. Then again, most, of not all are so. Hence. guys please be smart enough. Don't try that the ex is also my friend kind of shit, it just doesn't work that way. At least I know I won't like it. And I perfectly understand why he blew his top.

The unwritten rule here is such that, especially if the break up ain't pretty, you choose either one party. Nothing of the "she's/he's also my friend" kind of shit. If you don't subscribe to this, ok, you jolly well make sure that both parties don't know. Unless you are dead sure that they don't mind. Then again, if they don't mind, chances are ( though not 100% ) the exes would already be on talking terms.

Yes, it was the first time I saw him blew his top. Let that be the one and only time, please.

Was pleasantly surprised to receive a call from D.

The last time we met was way back in NUS, probably 1st year. However, our association goes back to our Ai Tong and Catholic High days. He's currently working in Hong Kong.

" Learnt about the breakup, hope that things really got better for you :)"

I paused for a moment. I have been pretty low key about this issue. It wasn't too long ago when it happened and only people that are close to me would have gotten wind of it. But nevertheless, as I've learnt. never underestimate the power of the internet.

D tried to converse in Cantonese. I would have expected it to be of a higher standard considering the fact that he's been in HK for like 2 years already? But I was wrong, terribly wrong. I still stand by my assessment that I speak much better Cantonese.. ahha....

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I have never proclaimed to be extremely smart. In fact, the various errors in my entries testify to this. And it's simply not me to try to post something "intellectual". I enjoy using my brain and thinking about stuff, but my world never comes to stand still when I'm in the process of "thinking". As much as thoughts and ideological debates are important, what's more crucial is that it must be practical. Otherwise, thoughts will just remain as , thoughts, however "brilliant" they may seem.

I prefer to make things happen, to see to it that things happen. My brain is working overtime, but I ain't smart. Just sufficient to get by and just sufficient to enjoy the fruits of my hardwork. My brain works for me and I work for my brain. When I work I use my brains, I "include" my brains in whatever I do. I don't stop working just to think. And I certainly cannot "think" to work.

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Never take anything for granted.

Including your brains. Learn to appreciate them for they have served you well and they will continue to serve you well as you continue to love and to nuture them.

Differences in terms of thought processes shouldn't be described as "dumb" or "stupid". I must confess out of frustration I have labelled some as above, haven't we? Apologies for that.

Having the "rights" and "access" to a brain that is"functioning" properly is definitely a privillege.

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I'm grateful for my freinds and my brain.

Just like a mental block, I am currenty experiencing something of this nature.

There were times when I've logged in and about to blog( perhaps out of habit), nothing seems to be come out. I'm tired no doubt about it but so was I last time.

I'm still pretty much alive and kicking though not too sure for how long more. Not to that I will collaspe of what but somehow I get tired much more easily leh...and have no wish to depend too much on caffine.

Been sleeping with my laptop of late, I mean literally. Thank God it didn't fall off the bed, otherwise that will be disaterous.