yeah....Things will only get better

Just a quick word to you know who you are. I have no intention to pen this but you're just asking for it. The episode was over many many many months ago. Yes, Past Tense. I have no intention to find out how he/she/they/them is(are) doing. This is my preferred way and my belief that is this the correct or most appropriate approach for me. I don't think I'm heartless, on the contrary, I don't owe anyone anything and that's a fact. For God's sake, get on with your life. I thank you for your concern in this aspect but I really need a breather. It's so nice to note that life can be wonderful without them physically around but just the wonderful memories. Don't get me going into who's right and who's wrong. I have my opinion, they have their opinion. And you probably have yours. And we're not trying to find out who's right and who's wrong. That will never be conclusive. They have chosen the best way for them and I have chosen mine. 

Yes, that was one of the worst moment in my life. But I've overcame it. By not keeping in touch gives all of us the much needed space to move on with all matters. Some have moved much faster and some have decided to turn around and ask  why haven't you moved just as quick? I'll always remember that question but I habour no ill feelings. Yes, we'll all meet again some day. And yes, memories will be triggered. But this is life. Love, Friendship, Companionship... you name it. There are ups and downs. Some short and some long. Some disappeared just as quickly as it appeared. 

I walked through some of the darkest moments without some of the people that I thought were my closest friends. I still mix around with them, except I can't, hand to heart, claim to have them as my closest friends. I 've been through some difficult times with them and managed to give them the solution. When it was my turn, I no longer have the luxury of someone being by my side, to plough, to dig , to simply put, labour on. I thought others would be around to see me through. But crap, I struggled alone. 

Let me tell you my dear friend, I'm not bitter. I'm disappointed that help wasn't initiated but well, the bottom line is that I got through. My relationship with all parties did not hinge on any of these failures. We've got to look at the big picture. Simply put, they have indeed lent a helping hand when I needed one in the past. And I cannot choose to overlook that and choose to harp on the " have-nots".

I'm not sure if this make sense to anyone of you reading this. Sometimes in life, there are things that are meant to be in the past tense. The wonderful memories keep things going. Do not try to change the status as such. Things happen for a reason, no matter how hard you try and if things just don't go your way, you just have to accept it.

To borrow a quote from one of my big boss whom I had the honour of having dinner with last Friday, " Sometimes in life, you really have to believe in luck. It's something that you cannot discount totally. However, you have to put in your best effort even if no help is available and luck seems to have deserted you. Try to make your own luck. And when everything is done and the outcome is still not what you desire, that's God's way of telling you that He's still in charge."

Yes, the Almighty is very much in charge. I might have chosen my preference but He will see me through His chosen way for me. I just have to do my best. =)